Ok I Take It Back....

Maybe I was a little too harsh on Ron.

He has been annoying lately BUT it still stands that if I am not married by 35 I do want his help with the whole baby thing.

Most of you know it has been an on-going topic for the past 5 yrs. with us.
BUT, I think he is coming around.

He is bringing it up...and tonight he agreed to it. Good thing I am only 32.

We would hopefully have some really tall, crazy haired little monkeys.

Not to Quote Eric Cartmen

I'm So Pissed Off !!!

My day has been bad from the beginning and it isn't even 11 yet.

6:30 am My landlord who lives upstairs decides yet again that it is the perfect opportunity to finish up that carpentry project. HAMMERING non-stop. This isn't the first time either.

8:15 am I am so stuffy I can not sleep anymore. I shower and head to work.

9:00 am I get to work to discover someone has switched out my computer with the nice big screen and super fast processor with some fucking peice of shit computer that has a 15 inch screen. What the fuck?
I have reports that are literally like 30000 rows long how the fuck am I supposed to work on this thing.
The email is not set up.
The IT guy is AWOl.

Screw this

9:30 am I walk out the door.
I see my boss in the parking lot and was like GW I am outta here. We chatted for a while and i left.

10:15 am Marshalls for some retail therapy. No I did not buy anything. I was cruising the bag selection since we all know I love bags.

10:30 am Starbucks....Maybe today is getting better...

I'll keep you posted.

It's Official

Things that became official as of right this moment.

1. I am sick.

2. I am never wear pj's to CVS again...Jarret knows why...uuuuuhuuummmm uuuuuhummmmmnnnnn uuuuuhummmnnnnnn...HEY.

3. I don't like the taste of Alka-seltzer cold nighttime, they changed the flavor. But man if you can't ever sleep that stuff knocks you out.

4. Schmoooop got a big boy hair cut today and is so f*ing cute.

5. Think I have nothing in common with Ron.He is on new meds and man he is a miserable person and honestly not a ball of fun to talk to.Maybe we need to not talk for while.

Ex's

Did you ever have those weeks when your Ex's come out of the woodwork?
This has been that week for me.
The most interesting is happening now, as I type.
Dean (the original crazy guy)is online telling me how he is getting married in two weeks and that he is weirded out because his announcement is going to be in the New York Times.
And that he misses me.
He stalked me...among other things but I have compassion for him. He needed help.
HELLO.
Anyway. I suppose I should just grin and bare it. He is now going to be married and happy or whatever. I just get frustrated with my life at moments like this.

OK I sat on this post for a few minutes...
I think my problem is I need to let it go. People go, cut them off.
I try to remain friends with every single EX I have ever had. And the only person who gets hurt by this seems to be me. Not that talking to Dean is hurtful by any means but it is just a harsh reminder of every time I have failed. Not that every relationship has been a failure, some have been extreme learning experiences.
I am not sure why I am so hung up on this right now, maybe it is just talking to him and the events of this week with talking to Jason (no comment from the peanut gallery).
Maybe I should go to bed and stop spewing words that have started to make no sense.

Built To Spill

The show was top five most boring shows I have been to.

Dinosaur Jr. was pretty good. I have a thing for J. Mascis anyway.
I think after having met him and talking to him numerous times,seeing how SLOW he does everything in his real life, it is amazing to watch this man play guitar his fingers fly.
That still did not make up for the lameness of the rest of the show.
Mike and I decided we were so bored we would just leave. So we did.

I'm Hot...In The Geriatric Scene

Well it has been two weeks since the last time I was asked out...
Today I was pulling into Starbucks behind a Bentley.
The car parks a man gets out and goes into the shop.
I go in as well.
He gets his drink. I get mine.
As I am filling my vente cup with sugar and yumminess, I look over and see them man staring at me. I smile.
He pops off his stool and comes over and stays hi I am Peter.
I say hi I am Michele.
He makes a comment about the weather (it is raining) and I state that I actually like the rain. It is fun you know to run in.
He smiles and asks me to join him for coffee. I tell him I can't that I am headed off to work.
He asks for my number and if maybe we could have coffee again another time.
I just smile and tell him well I am here everyday and turn and walk out the door.
He was cute, and old, and short.

Oh well. At least this time I did not give out the digits I am learning :)

Bored...Bored...Board.

If you can't tell I am bored.
This is the down side of taking care of Eli.
I suppose I could read.

Since You All Keep Asking...

OK due to an unusual amount of inquiries regarding my extremely lame dating life I will give you a run down on Who, What, When...

CW...AKA Courtney...slowly losing ground. I am just not as interested. I have no patience and for as sweet as he is I am just not finding waiting around very entertaining anymore.

George.AKA GC..done.

Ron...friend, no benefits.

Airport Guy, not a chance.

Crazy Guy. AKA Tom back to Crazy Guy, Gone.

So as you can see not a lot going on.
So with that said gather up your friends..I am excepting applications !!!

This is So Funny

Eharmony Part 2

Well after not logging back in to EHarmony since the special needs episode I have canceled my membership.
I did not need to spend $60.00 a month to type a few standardized answers to Dean from Melbourne Australia. Very unlikely that we were gonna meet and fall in love.
I love how canceling the membership was just as long and time consuming as joining.
I also canceled Match.

So there I now have an extra $100.00 a month.

I Think I Missed Something

Have you ever encountered a situation that made you step back and wonder exactly what led up to this happening?
This happened to me the other day .

I was out driving around, I drive past a T Stop and look over to see a man with no legs in a wheelchair "parked" in the middle of the parking lot asleep.
I thought to myself, did someone leave him there? Maybe he was too tired to go any farther?
What happened to this man that this is where he ended up?

All Dressed Up and No Place To Go

Tonight was Kevin and Roe's engagement party. The dinner was good and the company was great.

I get all dolled up in a great little black dress and heels. And now I am here alone...

Kevin, Brian and Jake all went next door to smoke and hang out at a party which I have no interest in attending so now I find myself alone and a little less fabulous.

Well the night was good at least.

CW trys again.

Well I have to give CW some credit. He certainly is putting in a little more effort into this endeavor.
I will keep you posted since my biggest concern (well one of the) is out inability to communicate. But we have talked a couple times this week and he is getting better about being more open.

Plus, I like my good morning wake up messages.They are sweet.

We will see !!! But for now I will just be happy that my Pats trounced his Jets last weekend :)

Airport Man re-Appears

I was just sitting here sending an email when my phone rings. I look at the phone and see it is not anyone I know but think it is a Georgia number so maybe it is Kris, or Jay, or even Jarret. I answer.

On the line is this deep Baritone voice that sounds like Barry White. I know that it is not one of the three people I mentioned in the previous paragraph.
He says Ms. Michele I respond yes. He is like Hello darling...
I am like WHO THE FUCK?

Then I remember, The guy from the airport, Daniel.
So I say this is the guy from the airport isn't it?
Daniel?

He was like yes, and you are the girl with those super long legs and tatoos.
why haven't you called me. I have been waiting to hear from you.

I was like ummmmmm....I have been busy.
He responds with I am leaving for vacation this weekend and I want to get you a tee shirt but I am not sure what size you are. I want to have something to give you when I get to Boston.

I respond with, I don't wear T-shirts and you don't have to get me anything.
He says I did not ask you if I could get you something. Now I am am sure you can use it at least to sleep in...

I am such an ass. I am sure he is a nice guy but honestly I really dont want to go out with him. I have enough going on.

We chat for a few and then he says he will give me a call when he is in town again which is gonna be soon.
I agree, because I have no backbone...

I hope he at least goes somewhere nice.

New Addiction

Do you ever have times when you get a song stuck in your head? In the CD player on repeat? Over and Over and Over...

For me this week it has been Imogen Heap's Hide and Seek.

Crackberry

Well it is official.

Have Broken my own rule and finally got a crackberry.

It is cute and pink. I will now be married to my phone.

I Can't Sleep

This is really getting out of control. I am stocking up on reading material.

Last night I should have been exhausted, up till 3-ish.

Tonight, well it is 1 and I am wired...

I think I just over-think things and can not shut my brain down.

The Reluctant Fundamentalist

Well I have been trying to figure out whether or not I was going to post about this weekend or not. And if I did what I was going to edit out, and then thinking why should I edit anything out but for the sake of my own self I just might.

Friday night I flew to Atlanta. My journey started at Logan and I was just sitting minding my own business when a very nice gentleman named Daniel sits down next to me.
We start chatting and since the flight is delayed it gives that plenty of time to happen. He seems like a nice guy, works for CNN covering the Celtics, The Red Sox, and The Chicago White Sox. We talk about Georgia and I tell hum why I am going. He asks if I am going to have any extra time while I am in town, since he would like to see me again while I am there. I tell him my weekend is pretty booked but when he asks for my number I hand it over...I know damn well I am never going to go out with this person but I figure why not.
We board our flight and go our separate ways.

Jarret and Chris were kind enough to collect me at the Marta Station and off we went on a weekend adventure filled with clove cigarettes, seltzer, heat, and lack of gas.

The beef party was a lot of fun and about 12000 degrees. I am a northern girl. I could never make it in the south. I just literally want to curl up in a ball and give up. It is like being beaten into submission, I just want to cry (for the record I have never experienced this mentioned beating I am purely assuming).

It was great to see everyone again. Jack is as amazing as ever. Jay did eat Pasta Salad. My sister looks really good, and is a fab mom and hostess. Jarret seems like he is in a good place.

After some very good conversations this weekend I learned a lot, about myself and why I do not just settle in relationships. I realized that yes it is OK to be particular and wait for what you want. Even if I am 1000 before I get it.

Weekly re-cap..

I have decided to recap the ups and downs of my week so far..Got back in touch with GC.
He promised to call on Tuesday...he did not...
I emailed him and told him that he should not make promises because he sucks at keeping them...I get his usual excuses...we have become friends on Facebook this week...I leave him a silly little message on his wall...like the other 12,000 people on his profile.So, he sends me the SKETCHY-IST email tonight...I think he is married or has a girlfriend or something. I have yet to figure it out...will keep you posted.

Heading to Atlanta after work tomorrow for beef party.

What a Creepy Feeling

I have posted about my spider problem before. My car is infested with spiders. Well today I was driving Sir Schmoop to Dover to get his pictures done. (so cute BTW)

I always wear flip flops April-Oct(ish)

There is a hole in my car which allows water to pour in at my feet (new trick)

Back to the story as I was driving feel this tickle in the arch of my foot. I knew what it was I could feel it crawling in there. I was so proud I did not freak and just nonchalantly reached down brushed the spider out and smooshed it at the same time and kept driving.

Anyone want to buy a car?

Arrangement Eli.

J'ai décidé de faire un poteau entier en français. Pas que je peux le lire. Je commence à apprendre à me parler français depuis des rumeurs d'Eli seulement dans cette langue choisie. J'enrôle l'aide de Babelfish, qui est un traducteur anglais-français. Si tout va bien un jour je comprendrai que les malédictions l'enfant est lancement notre à moi.

I Am Not Accepting Comments on This One

That said I probably should not even post it due the feed back i am sure I will receive. But It is fun waiting to see if someone actually keeps a promise they made yesterday. I will keep you posted.

Vague I know...

Update on dating.

CW is AWOL probably because I emailed him and was like listen we hardly even talk anymore are you even still interested...nothing scares away guys faster than tough questions. Which honestly annoys me because he was big on HONESTY...avoidance is not honesty...he must not have gotten that memo...Plus, he got mad at me for kicking his ass in mini golf...

Nothing else going on really...except for the hail mary pass I threw...see original post but honestly i know better than to expect miracles.

Helpful Tip To All You Mom's

If you turn the monitor off, they stop crying !!!

E Harmony

Well i decided to spend a pair of shoes and join EHarmony.

My initial thoughts so far were I should have went for the shoes.

I made it through the initial 40 steps to open communication with Jeff or is it Scott or is it Martin no wait there was one more name in there. I was like WTF I kept having to refer back to the dudes ad and was calling him out on shit left and right. I was so confused. Then he said he had a daughter but in his ad he mentioned a son. When I brought that up he said the son died and so did the wife...I was beginning to think maybe his mother filled out his EHarmony application for him and that was the only reason that he was approved. The entire time we were "chatting" I kept thinkiing this guy is special needs...

So I did what any normal person would do I emailed him this morning and said I WANT MY MONEY BACK !!!!

Repeat After Me

I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.
I AM NOT DWELLING ON IT.


SEE AT THIS POINT I FORGOT WHAT I WASN'T DWELLING ON...

When Life Hands You Lemons...

OK General consensus is my life has been uber shitty this week. I have also used the word uber in like three posts.

Sadly enough I am too broke to pay for my tuition for this semester and have been in such a funk I haven't really tried to raise the funds.Maybe in the AM I will go to the school and see if they will let me in.
I thought about going this morning but stayed in bed.
I thought about going yesterday but stayed in bed then too. OK, not to be too pathetic I did get up and go to Bus today...That is something right.

Otherwise this semester is a waste which honestly isn't that bad of a thing. I can save up some cash and get settled into a routine. Which if tonight is any indication will be me sitting in my room when I get home while someone(s) else watches TV in the living room. That is just me being petty since I ate dinner on my bedroom floor cause I did not want to interrupt their movie with my lights and dinner and such.


Really it is my issue. Issue- rhymes with tissue as in TP...there is an issue...Who uses roughly 348 sheets of TP in a Sat afternoon to Monday afternoon time span???
Literally blows my mind...

Name Change

I think I am gonna change the name of this blog....

Tales of a Spinster.

The Girl Who is Undesirable.

My Life Sucks ...Today.

Before you all get your panties in a bunch (especially you Jarret) I am not going through some serious depression....I just hate dating since it leads to rejection and I seem to always be the one getting rejected...

My Ego Hurts...

But really I am Fine...
OK I am adding to this.I am in a funk. Not a funky funk. I just don't understand what is so wrong with me. That NO One wants to date me. Even the Crazies are shying away. Am I seriously that horrible. Nah, I know I am not. I am even willing to make sacrifices or over look things like (self editing took place here) to make things work and that doesn't even work.

Why should I stop being so picky if even lowering my standards doesn't work. What the hell am I supposed to do?

Pictures from my going away party

Crazy Guy

goes crazy...he is no longer Tom. He is uber crazy guy.
I knew better than to bestow a name on him so quickly.
Fuck. What is wrong with me?

Weekend.

This weekend was fun. Sonya and I went to NY to Bess's house for a couple of nights.
We left on Sat and got there around 6ish. We met up with Bessie and decided we would go to the Garrison and then go get our nails done together. A special little treat. For added comic relief we went to Wally World later.
The next day Bessie, Sonya, Chris and myself went on the boat to Gull Bay and crashed my family party. It was a lot of fun.
I am certainly not in the mood to finish this or any post so I am not going to.